whatiwanttohavethisverysecond:
So, I’m not one to pretend that I don’t have problems, but it bothers me that my biggest *CRAZY* problem is something people know fuck all about.
I have BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) and it’s like Bi-Polar, Depression and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder all mixed together into a dough…
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Source: davidbowiesgroin
I passed out early last night. Woke up to my five year old little brother in my bed, and after five minutes of silence he whispers: ”Butt nuggets”. He’s obsessed with it. Little boys are like that, we argued about it for ten or fifteen minutes for him to stop saying it. He won.
I couldn’t go to sleep and I just laid there, Jordy fell asleep. When I woke up my mother’s husband brought home a prostitute, and in order to get rid of her, I had to fork over sixty bucks.
After that I walked outside and right on my doormat there were two cats fucking. I couldn’t get them to go away, so I had to walk around them. Then Jerry the homeless guy that lives in my neighborhood was drunk, and kept asking me for cans. I felt bad ‘cos I didn’t have any.
Now? Now I don’t know what I feel. I’m a constant moving force that bounces back between depression and the feeling of invincibility. I’m so afraid of what I feel sometimes, that I’m not sure what it is. If it’s a part of my disorder or if it’s really authentic - something that isn’t created or spawned from the unbalance of my world. Sometimes, I cut it all off and don’t let myself feel anything. I’m afraid of the mania - don’t do anything that I know I’ll just give up on. The depression - the reason why I give up on it. I let myself get into this numbness where I do nothing but go outside of my head and hope to whatever fucking forces on this planet are that I don’t start seeing shit again. I think here too. I think a lot, about everything…
I don’t know why I’m writing this anymore. I need a goddamn blunt so I can chill the fuck out…
so lets talk about how my friends and i played spin the bottle in the back of the biology classroom today
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